Not too much has gone on in the past few days.
Tuesday, I had my dress fitting, which went pretty good. The only big issue was the shoes that I bought for the wedding. The day I bought them, they were great. I wore them all around and for 3 1/2 inch heels, they were pretty comfortable. But then, I took them to David's Bridal to get dyed because my dress isn't a total pure white. Now, I know this was probably pretty silly of me, but I didn't think of trying them on again. So I put them on when I had my dress fitting and MY FEET HURT SO BAD!!!!! I almost couldn't handle it. So, I'm going to have work those shoes in big time. Otherwise, the dress has to be taken in, and the hem length is perfect, so I'm happy otherwise.
Yesterday, Jerry and I drove down to Glastonbury to get our Marriage License. All that went great and then we went to lunch at this place called Houlihan's which is just right across the street from the hotels all the out of towners will be staying at. Perfect dining recommendation. :) I had pot roast with absolutely awesome red bliss mashed potatoes. They were so good. And the atmosphere is really nice, too. Modern and clean with dark wood and green tones. Absolutes gorgeous. It's what I would want my master bedroom suite to look like if I ever get to have one. *sigh*

Ok, so it's still like in the high eighties out, but the second that I started to see red and orange on the trees, I get giddy. I love fall, I love autumn, I love the harvest season. And next week is September and that's close enough for me. And when that happens, I have a tendency to want to listen to nothing but bluesy natural music. Acoustic? Even better. Just something about the season makes me want to listen to music with raw, beautiful, emotion. It helps me feel natural and free.

Not to mention, the moon tonight is absolutely gorgeous. She's as full as She can get and just glowing. I couldn't be more in love with the moon. She is just so beautiful... I love to just sit underneath Her and bask in that light. It invigorates me.

So the combination between those two things today have made me feel alive. It's that feeling that sits right below your heart and it just feels so full you feel like you could cry; but a good cry. The kind of cry that makes you feel real. I only get to feel this way for a short time. It starts just about now and will last until the new year begins. I guess that it's kind of a long time, but I just wish that I could get this feeling year round.

Tomorrow is Macaroni and Cheese day! Jerry and I bought this cheese(forgot what it's called but it's real sharp, not cheddar, though) at the Farmer's Market a couple weeks ago and tomorrow we're going to introduce it to Dill Havarti Cheese and Cabot Seriously Sharp Cheese. Once those meet, then they will get to meet heavy cream and macaroni! I LOVE THIS STUFF!
I can't wait.

What a wonderful day I had today. Granted it was pretty humid out, which generally slows me down, but I woke up at about 8am and just felt like today was going to be good. I had a nice big bowl of cereal and then took Molly for a walk. It was a nice long walk, and it has been awhile since I took her for one. I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to hold the leash good enough since I hurt my fingers, but it all went well. She was so exhausted by the time we got back. It felt real good.

Then at lunch time I made an awesome parmesan and basil crusted tilapia filet with whole wheat pasta and mushroom marinara sauce. It was really good, but I think next time I'll try for a white or lemon sauce for the pasta. I can't wait for school to start for Mom and Dad so I can cook dinners again at night. I love cooking for Jerry and I.

And then today was the day that I got to go kayaking with Samantha! I had so much fun. I can't wait to go again. Jerry said that he would try it and see if he would like it. I really loved the feeling I got afterward. My arms and abs feel like I really got a workout. I really think it would be great for my spirit and my body. It was just so beautiful and it started to lightly rain and you could see all the droplets in the water. I also love the dragonflies that hang out on the water. I think this is the kayak I would eventually like to invest in. It's a Dirigo 14 Kayak by Old Town®. It's nice because it has a big cockpit for my big butt and hips. It's a medium lenth so I can do a little bit of everything in it. I couldn't be more excited about being a paddler.

I had a pretty accomplishing day today. I paid off both the photographer and the DJ today; very exciting stuff. I also made a trial appointment for my hair for the wedding. Today is 50 days until the wedding. Less than 2 months. Wow...
I also tried on the undergarments for my dress today... A little disappointing because of my back fat. My back fat is one of my biggest pet peeves about my body. Now I am a big girl, and I know that, but I feel like I'm pretty proportional, but when I put on corsets or slimmers, it pushes all of my back fat up and looks awful. So I'm a little disappointed that I didn't exercise more and take care of that when I still had time. I'm still gonna give it my all, but not much is gonna happen in 5 weeks. I did exercise today and I'm wicked excited to go kayaking tomorrow. Yeah! Trying to get over the back fat issue.
I'm kind of on the look out now for some comfy white robes for Jerry and I on our wedding day and honeymoon. I haven't really seen anything I like in a decent price range, though so I'm kind of sad about that, too. If anyone knows of any place please comment and help me out! :)

Everything went by so fast today. I can't believe how late it is already. We went out to Angellio's for Auntie's birthday. It was very good. I had a Penne dish with broccoli, mushrooms, and chicken in a Gorganzola Cheese sauce. Also, I had their French Onion Soup. Now that was good. Jerry would have loved it. He really like French Onion Soup.

After dinner, Tina and I went to EMS and I saw some very cute water shoes. Perfect for paddling. They were on sale for $25. I love them. :)

Falling asleep now..

Today was a long tired day.

I'm so happy to be home. Though there was a good news today. Jerry is going to be transfered about a half hour closer to home. I'm so happy, it's about time they moved him closer because an hour is just too long.

Otherwise, I'm ready for bed and still can't wait until Saturday so I can sleep in!

Well, last night after I wrote about wanting to go back to school, I did some more research. I went to MCC's website first because I knew that would probably be my best bet. So as I was checking out their degree programs, I came across something that I think may actually be perfect for me. I think I want to be an Occupational Therapy Assistant. Occupational Therapy is basically what can help a person who is disabled or in recovery to make independance possible. It will help people relearn and teach their bodies how to do basic motor skills to live their lives and get back to work if necessary. I just think that it would be an incredibly rewarding job, and it's a job that's pretty high in demand here. So it shouldn't be too hard to find a job. Yeah! I'm so excited. I'm going to call and make an appointment to talk to the OTA advisor at MCC and try to get more information about the course.

Also, Sam and I are going kayaking on Sunday! I'm so psyched! I've been wanting to learn how to kayak for years now, but I haven't had the money to take a course. But when the new L.L. Bean went in, they have this thing called Walk On Adventures, where you pay $15 and they shuttle you out to a local pond and teach you the basics of kayaking. It includes everything including the equiptment. I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!

Otherwise, I have had a pretty lazy day. I had plans to do more laundry, but I have to work all day tomorrow so I wanted to relax. And I am, but I did exercise again today! GO ME!

I Think I'm Giving Up On Titles...

Well, today was OK. My morning at work went by really fast, which was good, I guess. But it was more like one of those fast mornings that you don't have time to get anything done, then feel obnoxiously unproductive. I get over that pretty quick though, because I worked my ass off to get as much as I could done.
Then on the way home today, I couldn't help but think about going back to college. I don't know why because this thought almost never gets into my head. I think it has a lot to do with my being confused about what I should have as a career. I guess I feel like that will help me, and I know I could get a better job. BUT.. one of the reasons I left school (and believe me, there were a lot of reasons), was that I feel like I didn't have time for my family including Jerry and Molly. And I don't want to start something and then end it again because of that reason. I'm already tired most of the time and I generally can't wait to get home so I can just hang out. So I guess I just don't know if I have the proper motivation. Not to mention, I have no idea how I would afford it.
When I got home though, I became pretty productive, did laundry, made the bed, I ACTUALLY EXERCISED! I did both cardio and strength training. It's been a long time since I did that. I wanted to make sure everything was good for Jerry when he got home, too. He left at 4am and didn't get home until 7:00pm. That's a long day and I knew he'd be tired.
And now, I've stopped. My body has shut down and I'm tired. I still have a load of laundry in the dryer I need to bring up and put away. It better be dry soon, or my procrastination will set in.

I'm Not So Dramatic Today...

I'm just so happy that this weekend is over. I just need to get through the rest of this week and then peace. I didn't do much today, but this morning when it was just Molly and me, we cuddled on the couch with the BIG comforter and watched a horror movie. Nothing better. Then I went to work and it sucked. Then I came home and did nothing but pretty much make my final decision on the Wedding music.
Here's the rundown:

Ceremony(acoustic guitar)-

During Arrivals- Hang – Matchbox Twenty
Reflecting Light – Sam Philips

During Bridesmaids Walking Down Aisle - Deer Hunter(not really sure what this song is about, but I really like the way it sounds)

During Bride Walk Down Aisle- Mona Lisa – Grant Lee Phillips

During Bride and Groom Leaving and While People Leave-
Breakfast at Tiffany’s – Deep Blue Something

Reception-

Introductions – I’m Gonna Be(500 Miles)-The Proclaimers

First Dance - Love Song- 311

Cake - What I Like About You-The Romantics

Parent Dance – All You Need Is Love-The Beatles

Anniversary Dance - Into The Mystic-Van Morrison

Bouquet Toss – Another One Bites The Dust- Queen

Garter Song – Crazy Little Thing Called Love-Queen

Last Song- Viva Las Vegas-Elvis Presley

Must Play List:

Fat Bottom Girls-Queen

Rock Lobster & Love Shack-The B-52’s

YEAH! I'm so excited...

Career Move?

Nothing huge really going on. Jerry and I have just been hanging out. Last night we went out to dinner with a friend of his. We all had a really good time. We were there talking for almost 5 hours, but it was nice intelligent and amusing conversation. We need that every once in awhile, I think Jerry and I have a tendency to not talk much because we see each other all the time, so it feels like there's nothing to talk to most of time. Not like that hurts our relationship or anything, we talk about the important stuff, of course.

I've been feeling a little confused lately. I really love my job and I love the people I work with(most of the time), but I feel like I'm at such a dead end. I'm making pretty decent money for the doggie daycare and kennel attendent industry, but it's not the kind of money that you can start a family with. And not that Jerry and I are planning on having children very soon after we're married; we want to get settled first. But we need to be able to be prepared for it. It just feels like I'm not pulling my weight financially in the relationship. He pays most of our bills, and I pay for my student loan, car loan, and my credit cards. He covers everything and I do feel bad about that, but I just don't have the cash. It just sucks because, yeah, he makes almost double what I do, but it's not enough to pay for a mortgage and everything else that goes into buying a house. And sure I know that Mom and Dad would let us stay in the house as long as we need to be here, but we don't want to have to be here for long after we're married. I think it will just be weird. So, anyway, I need to figure out what my next move is. But it's hard, because this is all I know. I've only ever worked with dogs, and I have no interest in doing veterinary work. And being a college dropout(ouch! never thought of myself like that before), that doesn't help. I don't know. I just need to keep what to do next on the back burner...

Getting Psyched For The Wedding (and Honeymoon)

So the past couple days, I've been trying to get organized for the wedding and the honeymoon.

I've been making revised check lists and itineraries so that everything will go smoothly. I really have to make sure I get the timing down pat for the wedding, especially the ceremony. But, I'm sure everything will be fine regardless.

But what the best thing to make check lists and itineraries for is the HONEYMOON! And I know that it may seem anal to make an itinerary for the honeymoon, but there is so much to do in Vegas and we want to make sure we see as much of it as possible while we're there. Plus, so we don't waste a bunch of time waiting in lines for stuff, we want to buy tickets for everything we want to do so we have more time to enjoy it. And I know that it won't all go as planned and I'm totally OK with that. I just want to leave with some sort of game plan. Honestly, we just can't wait to have a nice long vacation. We need it so bad. We just wish we had our own home to come back to afterwards. But we'll get there.

A Great Day...

Today was a really good day. Jerry and I both didn't have to go to work and we had a lot of stuff to get done. We didn't accomplish all of it(darn laundry always gets in the way), but it was so nice to be able to just spend the day with each other. When we first got up, we headed outside to get some yard work done before it got too hot, then came in and took nice cool showers. There is nothing better than getting all gritty and dirty and then getting in the shower and feeling fresh.
Then we took a ride out to the new L.L. Bean store to check it out. It makes me want to learn to kayak more than ever now. When I think of the peace and serenity of going out on a lake in a kayak really early in the morning, it makes me swoon. Then we checked out William Sonoma to see if there was anything that caught our eye. We got two $50 gift certificates as a Bridal Shower gift and we want to just keep an eye out and make sure we don't miss out on something that would be great to have. We're still getting a bunch of shower gifts in the mail. We never dreamed that people would spoil us quite as much as they have. All of our family and friends are so incredibly generous and we love every single one of them. We also went to Target to check out luggage but it all sucked. We'll check out Kohl's someday. Jerry also bought me a NEW cell phone. It's so pretty and red and slimline and just great. I'm so excited to have a new phone, my other one was getting pretty grody. It looks almost just like his, but his is gunmetal grey.
Then we came home and relaxed. I finished up all of my thank you notes from the shower and those will go in the mail tomorrow. Hooray! I love sending thank you notes. I think people appreciate a hand written letter nowadays. They seem to be quite rare.
Well Jerry is on the Wii, but I'm Falling Into Dream Land....

For Some Reason, I'm Bored...

And I'm not sure why. I'm getting married in exactly 61 days and I just feel like I have nothing to do. Although, I probably have stuff I SHOULD do, but it's a matter of wanting to, I guess.

I just missed having the Internet know all my thoughts. This new blog will hopefully last as long as the wedding and then beyond into married life. I can't wait to be married to Jerry. Everyday I think about how lucky I am to have found someone to spend my life with at my age. 22 may seem like an OK time to be married, but we've been together for 7 years. That means we've been together since I was 15 years old. That just seems crazy to me. But we're just as in love now as we were then. At least we live with each other now and at least we're in the same state! When we met, Jerry lived in upstate NY and I in CT. I've never known anyone else to ever have met the person they marry on a random instant message on AIM. It just really makes me believe that there is something so much bigger than us out there. Even if it's just something making sure love goes right.