Three Strikes

All the stress and pressure that I had been feeling about work this weekend, were absolutely tossed in my face today. I went out with the dogs for the first half of the afternoon, and my anxiety level was at an all time high. I was grinding my teeth(which I noticed that I have been doing a lot of that lately, all the time, not just at work), and just lost all patience. All the dogs were awful with each other and I just felt like I had absolutely no control over the situation at all. With that being stated, I feel like I'm close to another break down and this would be the third that I have had just being at this job for 2 years. Unfortunately, this third one doesn't seem to be fused by my other coworkers as it has in the past. This time it's the dogs. I don't feel a connection with most of them anymore. Of course, there are the few that I absolutely adore, but most of them, when I look at them, I get nothing but a feeling of frustration. And that's not healthy, for me or for them.
Three strikes and I'm out. I realized today that it's time to get looking to move on. And like I said yesterday, I'm scared, but it's something that I really have to do to regain my mind and soul. This job was supposed to be awesome for my psyche. I was going to have constant contact with animals. But I think that there is such a thing as "too much of a good thing" and dealing with 50 different dogs everyday is like working the lunch patrol in a high school where all the kids do shitty things to each other and no one has any idea why. I hate high school kids, I hated high school kids when I was a high school kid. It's just not something I have the patience to put up with. I guess, it's just time to move on. There is a physical therapy office in town that I'm going to see if they need a receptionist/secretary. Just to get my feet wet in the therapy industry. But we'll see if that works out.
Until I do find a replacement job, I found something that I hope will be able to get me through an ordinary work day. I went to Whole Foods after work today to get some shitake mushrooms for a stir fry I am making on Thursday, and to see if they sold books(which I didn't see), and I had heard about a Bach Flower Remedy called Rescue Remedy from my old Naturopathic Physician I went to. She never suggested it to me, because I was never is super stressful situations that I couldn't handle then. But I knew it came highly recommended by her so I looked for it in the vitamin aisle. Now I only remembered it in liquid drop form, but the sales girl there, showed me that they had little pastilles, that you can suck on or just put under your tongue. So I figured that would be a lot easier for me to do before and while being with the dogs, rather than the drops. So I purchased them, and I have all intentions of trying it out tomorrow.
Another thing I am doing to try to combat the stress I'm feeling and just to just try to get back into my own head, is meditation. I have discovered the wonderful world of Podcasts. They have awesome guided meditations and have done a few so far and I seem to like it. But I have written alot already today so I'll talk more about it on a day that I have nothing to talk about.